A stasis

I'm obsessed with that quote from Anais Nin. I believe it. It illustrates what I feel I've been discovering over the last year while working on creating a change in myself.

We, as humans, are not linear. Our existence is spherical and not a fixed, perfect sphere. We undulate, dilate, we have tides. The word globular is better; to describe a globe, like our world, a globe. But it's also just a globby shape, imperfect and nondescript, a glob.

I'm glad that I am consistently incorrect in predicting my future. I do not have the ability to know what forces of my life are pushing, pulling or holding me in what direction.

I think a stasis is a form of stability. Confidence in a relationship. What a relief.

Anais Nin

We do not grow absolutely, chronologically. We grow sometimes in one dimension, and not in another; unevenly. We grow partially. We are relative. We are mature in one realm, childish in another. The past, present, and future mingle and pull us backward, forward, or fix us in the present. We are made up of layers, cells, constellations.